Today is over

Hello and thank you for taking time from your day to read this.

 I'm actually happy that this day is near its' end. I didn't sleep very well last night. I had a medical issue on my mind right at bedtime, so I couldn't get to sleep. Today was just a day with many things weighing on my mind. As I wrote before, I had an Abdominal Mesh inserted underneath my skin, as the umbilical muscle (belly button) had torn. If the mesh has migrated, then I will have to have it surgically removed. I'm not much concerned about the surgery itself. If it has to be done, then let's get it done. The recovery is going to be the sucky part. I'll do that too, as it has to be done. Many people don't realize how dependent they are on stomach muscles until they are unable to use them. I'm not looking forward to the scar it will leave, not to mention the possibility of not getting my abs back to normal. It will be a matter of months before I'm back to 'normal' activity.

I decided to postpone my Gym membership due to the potential of just wasting money on monthly fees while I'm sitting in bed with stitches in my gut.

 Since I am still in limbo for my vacation plans, it's a matter that needs to be addressed while I'm sitting on my hands. I'm sure it will be an expensive surgery, and even with a possible payment from ongoing Class Action lawsuits on this topic, that check may not show up for many months. Just because someone wins a Judgement, it doesn't mean the payment will be prompt.

 Even though today was rather distracting and slightly depressing, I still managed to work on Game Development stuff. I'll be picking up the guitar soon and putting in some practice. I haven't had much motivation to compose music lately. But no biggie, as most people don't even listen to it. My Bandcamp page hasn't had a play in nearly 2 weeks. I posted a new music track on Youtube a week ago, and it only has 1 play, and that may have been me. My Spotify page gets less than 15 listeners in a month. I even post my links on Twitter as well as having it pinned. I'll probably still post my music, but it doesn't matter if I post links to it or not. I've always tried to be upbeat and interactive, so I don't know. I don't get tagged very often, but I am thankful for/to those that do, and try to respond to their post.

 Maybe I don't listen to enough music, I don't know. At my age, my preferences on musical genres is pretty narrow. I support artists even if their music is not what I listen to, because it is the support that is key. Since a majority of my music is not 'live show', it doesn't seem like music to some. There are people who do not see DAW musicians as a real talent. And since it isn't 'Bangin' it doesn't have a market. I'll keep making it as it is how I express my feelings. I'm not big on Quantity of songs, rather than Quality of songs. I don't see it necessary to belt out 4 songs a week. Lately I haven't felt motivated to create, but eventually I will, so I find other things to occupy my mind/time.

I don't see them as negative, but some might. For me it's positive to put my thoughts and emotions into music. I only make them. If others want to listen, I'd like that.

That's enough for one blog. Have a great Day/Evening, wherever you may be ☺️

6/23/21: The whole surgical thing is a wash. They said 'no surgery' but also said they don't know where the mesh went. It's floating around in my innards like a paper towel, that's where it went.👍  But that story is in my Medical Debacle blog.